i guess its kinda hard to put it...sometimes things go wrong because they wasnt meant to be in the first place... i just wish pplz can stop judgeing me by the way they see me on myspce....fuck myspce...lol
just bkuz you see me all modely type in my pix has nothng to do with how i am in person....
honestly..i hate make up.itll be once in a purple moon i wear heels out on a regular day,i never do my hair...lol i wear baggy clothes,i dont like alot of attention (unless it comes from somebody who i really am feeling) im not conceited, i dont care if im pretty or not.. i go out as i am..why ? because ima human i dont need to impress people..if someone wants me they will want me for who i am on the inside and what i stand for and my overall intelligence and inner beauty.
i can say my outer beauty is only a reflection of just how sexy i am on the inside...my mind,my thoughts,my words,my outlook on things sets me apart from my age.
i can say im really proud of where i stand today..because alot of females my age wouldnt evn dare to take on the stuff i do..why ? because i have no childhood anymore...i gave up on it because im ready to be a grown up about things and take things seriously...because tiems are already hard..and its not going to get any bettr to anyone who dosent take immidiate action! and ive been pretty stable since i was 15.. and had a job ever since....i pay my own bills,i go wherever i need to go.. i dont go because i know tht itll be s buncha guys around i try to avoid places liek tht but it seems i cant
but i can say im fully independent i need NO man to support me financially.. i have my own money
and they have theirs... i just need a man to support me physically (not talking about sex
),mentally,emotionally,spiritually and just be someone who cares....but i dont think ill find him anytime soon.. but who knows... anything is possible.ive lived to learn that how you carry yourself is how you get treated....
also that you have to be on top of your game 100% of the time to insure that your not one of them being played. i can say that its happend... and its my fault for even believing such out of certain pplz..
i hate people who believe that if they keep fucking up on me..that there is a way to just fix it.. you cant fizx a broken heart.thats a permanent depth mark imprinted forever.and theres is NO doctor for this cure...just the love of another can possibly wear off the scar to make it fade in place of a invisible band aid filled with love and care.
and i can say my love is impeccable.so pure that it will take a superhuman to fuel the force of gravity to pull it down for me to release it upon them...my heart is filled with love to give... but i have noone to give it to but myself.. i can say i love the attention i give myself...ive never had a lover like me....lol
i make a great boyfriend and girlfriend..lol
but siritually i have no one to accompany my love to.but in due time it will happen..im not going to rush anythng....
am i wrong for wanting to be careful with things and takeing time to get to know someone b4 moveing too fast?
am i wrong to be loyal and faithful to someone i am talking to?
am i wrong for allowing them trust hopeing they wont abuse it
am wrong for being a good woman ?
i guess karma should be a person..bkuz ive been seeing her alot around the same people who have done me wrong...
i guess its time to just be alone for a while... and ride in '09 dolo and just make my money and treat my damn self..
-cece
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